I have been feeling pretty unpretty lately. I guess it has to do mostly with my cornea ulcer. I have to admit, having this "thing" has caused a lot of change in me. I guess I had a whole lot of time thinking what I want to do, since I have been home the whole week.
So this is my conclusion: I feel pretty unpretty.
I always thought contacts made me feel better, or more like look better. Seriously, have you seen my spectacles right now? I think I look kinda dorkey. Yes, I can change my spectacles soon, but in the mean time, I am stuck. It also means I have to change, adapt to my new situation, which is kinda hard honestly.
Dear ulcer, please go away soon. I have learnt my lesson. I will take care of my eye with tender, loving care. Cross my heart!
I think I need a CHANGE. Really i do. Though I may sound pretty down about the whole eye issue, in some ways, I am glad. I feel like I know myself better. What I want, who I want to be, what I choose to be :) I am looking forward to my change! I can't wait! Now Mr. Ulcer, disappear! Please?
Until then, I feel sloppy, unkempt, messy, untidy, lazy, tired and what not. I feel "EWWWWWW" about myself. Oh did i mention I have to miss school tomorrow as well? I am very worried for my studies. Will this affect it? Gah! I am freaking out. I should start studying right? But I have yet to touch a book thus far. What am I going to do!