Sunday, July 23, 2006
this muz be the most regretful day of my life!! is there such a thing as a regretful day? no idea...went to church in the morning..was so happy. had a feeling tt today will be quite a fun nice day. everything went smooth. so went to chapel. sat down. ok..nth happen. then i saw soooo many ppl wear pink. well tt isnt tt bad but i dun really like pink so yeah..but tt wasnt the cause of it. then saw rachel n alicia n so they sat beside me. tts ok..then who else did i see..oh saw andrew..didnt know he came back...saw gloria. think she was kinda angry...was she?? mm..haha. then i saw jeremy n daniel. kinda glad to see them coming to ym. havent been coming 4 quite a while. then actually i saw quite a bit of ppl. lol..i had a bad hair day. dunno y but my hair juz looked weird to me today. kept on going to the toilet. mm..then nth much. had small group..all tt was ok..well today i was such a noisey person. made loads of noise. in wad way i dunno but i was quite "high". regretted being so high. dunno wad made me laugh. i dunno but i regretted loads of things today!! sucks ok. sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. sucks so damn much. never really written it tt many. really in a lousey mood. hate it when i feel like i regretted doin something.juz regrets it so much. see tts the worst thing about regret. u regret something n u wished u could turn back time n fix it up. but in reality..guess tt will never happen. juz hav to face the facts. wads done is done n u can never go back to it again. damn it. ppl claim im a quiet girl..actually tts quite true. never really remain high 4 quite a long time. only a little while. hate being noisey cause everytime i am..something bad juz happens...damn it! damn it! damn it! y m i so..i dunno...kinda in a bad mood. one thing aboout feeling regretful is tt i cant stop thinking about it. keep thinkin n thinkin about it till i think i can explode! my life...is seriusly miserable...
!billymartinfan!